Today the emo Cintia in class!!!! Sad, and pain at home!!!
Quite a long time no post... lets have a long post today...
Erm.. Actually I have promised someone that I will post yesterday, but ya...
Nvm.... I write this is for some ppl lah... I know is quite long for you guys to read, but that's wat had happened to me... To my dearest frens who I have mentioned this about to..
I'll write about today and yesterday's big big big affecting events....
The 2nd of Sept. - Ya, today morning went school wif my boy, wa, dunno why, today I've already went out of my home very early.. 6:35... then the stupid traffic jam lah!!! Jam all the way because the road in the front was at maintenance, then very sorry ah... Only reach mrt at 7:20 to meet him... We rush to school all the way lah... Didn't talk much about our stuffs... Haiz... I sweeting lah... My shirt all wet... Reach school at 7:34.. Then the marching music just started.... ya... quite late lah... Then Hist class, he sat in front of me lah, then he say today after school fetch me home after the oral... But today our group's teacher didn't attend school, so oral postpone until school reopen lah... Then I walk a while wif Lilian to the Mrt lah, but on the way I went there... My mum msg me and asking it's already 4, why still haven't go home yet... Then I told her a little lie saying that I am still having my lit thing..Then she ask me wat time end, she'll be there to fetch me home.. Walao, then I replied her that I dunno wat time end, I'll go wif my frens.... Then she say that she'll WILL and MUST fetch me.... Then she say that she need to go eat dinner as a whole family. Then I didn't reply her.... Then she call me call me call me call me call me call me call until so many times..... Then even call my frens. many times to ask where I am... Then fianllly I told her that I wait her at the Mrt lo.... Then she say ask driver to fetch me home... Then driver six came to mrt to fetch me lo... Then went home, went our for dinner lo.... After dinner then rest for a while then have tuition... I thought she was going to scold me or wat.... But she didn't, did made me more scared that why she didn't scold me.... She scold me better wat, rather to maintain at silence... Only until at night, she talk to me and said, your studies so good, dun go the wrong path. When you went wrong once, then your life is ruined. Your dad's business won't be handed over to u or neither u are going to have face to stay at sg (meaning being pregnancy of going the wrong path) Then she say that in school, dun accept boys things, or elso you will be giving hope to them that you like them, then they will take advantages from you there... you know that some boys are just pretending to be good so that girls could have a good impression on them, and gain trust from there... Now you're 14, u have your own thoughts, dun just anyhow believe and dtrust on boys and just start a relationship wif them, they will make you go the wrong path once and ruin your life... Then also used my cousins example to talk to me saying that they have only started their relationship until they finished university... Also they did not marry boys from school whereas the boys in school are not trusted.... ya... then talk talk talk..... End Today!
The 3rd Sept - Went school wif my boy today also, but when he saw his fren, he ask me go school first lo, then that time I saw Llian also so I cross the road wif her and went into school lo.... Then just before one second the bell rang, my mum call me... Then ask where am I, then ask where is my bro, then I told her that I didn't went school wif him, I dropped at the mrt lo.... Then she say why go seperately to school, then I told her that I meet my fren at the mrt (instead of saying my boy lah) and go school. Then she say why go wif frens, why must go seperatly, why must walk... Then bell ring lo. Hang phone lah... Whole day also quite emo.... Except sometime frens play wif me and kind of cheer me up lo.... Just during the science lah... I really want to express my feeling mah, then I talk loud loud lo... Then Mr. Goh told me two times to not talk... Hai... After school, went home lo, when I stepped out of the school gate, ya... I saw my car, that one I know, cause I scared that later she gonna scold me again, but this time is that, she also purposely went to school to FETCH me home... She saw Lilian, and ask her what's her name, then I say dunno.. (eh, I say this is just dun want her to know so much that some other days she will find and ask where I am and things like that lo) Ya, so I say dunno lo... Went home, saw my dad at home, then I say 'Dad I came back' No response!!! Kay, then I went back to my room and start typing my blog... Then when my dad went out of house, to go somewhere dunno where, my mum went into my room to talk to me... And ya, I was typing the front part of my post when she was talking...
Here goes the conversation: She say, why have you change until like that.. (like that means so bad lo) then she say you know how pain it was when you told me that you dunno wat's your frens name, I was just asking for her name wat, then your response was dunno... Then I told her that is because when you know her name, then dunno when you will just call her up and ask about me... Just like wat you did yesterday, calling my frens many times... OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She started crying.... OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG..... The worst I ever saw... Then she say, why have I changed until like that, I was just asking you so frenly that what's your frens name and your response was you dunno... Then somemore you say I'll call your frens becasuse of that, eh... I call your fren yesterday is because I've called you so many times that you did even bother to answer the call... Then I also have no choice wat, so I jsut called your fren for your safety, just to ask whether you are wif them... Then she say that her heart beated so quickly that she have called me so many times that I didn't even answer her call, and saying that I've told a lie to her of saying my phone was at a silent mode so I can't answer her call, she said this was because whenever your frens msg you, you'll reply, then how come I call you sooooooo many times you also dun answer! She cried more....I was really very scared ah.. she cried in front of me, somemore is because of me also.... Then she continue saying that you noe how scared I was wen you have came to s'pore, always end school so late, I really am so scared that you have met bad frens who have led you to the wrong path and just made you become pregnant... Then when this ever happens, how are you going to still become a normal person... The boy will be caned by law and you will have your babe in your body.... How will others look at you... Frens, just this year of frens.... Your frens are only wif you not even one year then you have trusted them so much, and me, I have born you out and have been wif you for 14 yrs and somemore you just listen to your frens rather than me... You know how heart pain is that.... Before you are sick when you are small, having high fever until you can't see things, I brought you to the hospital and take care of you.. Before your bro made me cry, you also was the one who told me not to cry and just ignore your bro... How come now you have change until like that... Your manners has just changed so much... The way you talk... I really regret why I have brought you here to S'pore to study that had always made me so worried about you and made me having a heart attack.... I really wish to bring you back to macau, as it is small and I would not have to find you every moment....Then talk talk talk, her phone rang and we stopped here...

*Ya... Quite a bad bad girl that I have made my mum so sad... Shame on myself... I know that she is feeling very sad. Now my heart is just beating very fast that I can't slow down... my heart hurts thata she was sad... It was pain of wat I've done... Really not more to say already...